Monday, April 26, 2004
Ok. Time to blog i guez. After such a long time...
Well haven't been realli happy for the whole week i guez... I mean yah i was happy going all kinds of places and enjoying quality time wif my frens etc (i realli realli enjoyed their company i must sae), but generally my mood wasn't the bez it can get.
Ppl ard me have oso been troubled by problems, be it minor or major ones... I guez this period of time juz isn't smooth-sailing for all of us... As for myself, my main worry has to be the fact that i haven't received anything yet from the 2 universities... When i sae nothing, i realli mean
nothing. Zilch. Hai i can't think of a better reason other than my results r realli not good and i juz dun belong to this 1st batch of ppl whom NUS and NTU have already sent letters to. Guez i can't do anything about it except to hold on to hope and keep checking my mailbox every dae till the dae i finally get sth. But well, it still hurts when u hear that almost everyone ard u have already received letters (many even received 2) and r eagerly discussing wat they shld take up and yet u have nothing at all. Yes, i genuinely feel happy for all these frens of mine, but as much as i wanna ignore it, there's this feeling inside that is gnawing at my heart... Feels pretty much like a mixture of disappointment, fear and sadness... Argh whatever. I think i'll juz try as much as possible to stay optimistic about the whole situation...
Ok time to change the topic... Another problem that i'm facing now is that i'm
still jobless. Haha i did call up schs etc and even stumbled upon a Coffee Club Xpress interview, but so far, there r no signs of me being employed in the near future... Life without a stable income is quite bad indeed. U'll tend to restrict ur spending and there will be so many things that u wanna buy but can't bear to buy... Conclusion: life without a job can actualli be quite miserable.
As for now, i juz wish that life (for me and everyone else) cld turn for the better in the daes ahead and may we all be happier ppl... Till then, take care everyone...
Monday, April 19, 2004
Ok, i admit, i was slacking the whole of the weekend and din bother to update here...
Ok the greatest news of all: I'm officially
out of that place (no they did not fire me,
i fired
them haha)! Time to throw a party complete with trumpets and confetti! Haha fri was my last dae and as i walked thru the doors of 'that dreaded place' for the last time, i felt so relieved... Finally, it's over.
Actualli, my happiness did not last long... When the news realli began to sink in, i came to the realisation that i've lost a stable and well-paying job and now i'm, for the third time, jobless again. Which is not a veri good thing as it means that i would have no income! Which means that if i wanna go out, i would hafta dig deep into my pockets and if i were to stay at home all dae in order to save money, i would be bored to death (which is precisely wat happened todae)! But well, on second thought, nothing beats leaving that place for good i guez.
Haha i've started flipping through the classified ads again and i'm gonna start call up all kinds of schs soon (coz the next job i wish to take on is relief teaching, good pay, good working hrs, y not?). Actualli me and huiyin did try calling up a few schs last week but so far the bez news we've gotten is 'we'll call u up when we need ur service'. So well well, i guez i hafta call up more schs (both pri and sec) in order to increase my chances of being employed. So hey everyone out there, if u knoe of any schs which currently requires relief teachers, dun hesitate to drop me a msg yah? ;P
Ok i hafta go help my mum wif some cooking and go take my well-deserved bath liaoz... Shall update here again
soon.
Sunday, April 11, 2004
Yawnz i'm back here again...
Life is simply getting worse... Dragging myself to work every dae in the morning... Putting up wif all the nonsense from everyone... Trying like crazee to meet the 'target' of doing 100 emails a dae (which is totally stupid, they think we r goddesses is it?)... Even the emails i face every dae irk me so much i feel like smashing the computer screen... I realli can't wait to escape from 'that dreaded place', i mean if i dun leave soon, i guez i'll end up in a mental institution.
Juz yesterdae we were asked to answer calls coz they claimed they were shorthanded... I mean pls, we haven't answered calls like for almost a mth? Obviously we wld have forgotten lotsa stuff by now... But nevertheless we tried our bez... Every time a call ends and we hang up the phone, it starts ringing again... Most of the calls that i've received were asking for their income tax forms which they shld have received by early march... Those ppl din bother to call and ask for them in the daes and weeks before and now that it's NEAR the dateline, they panic and call us to scream in our ears... Ask them to come down personally to get the forms, they said they r not free. So is that
my problem? Bastards.
It seems like eva since i stepped into 'that dreaded place', i've not been happy at all... I started to see all the ugly sides of human nature, well perhaps, Singaporean nature (in the case of those emails from those irritating singaporeans that i'm dealing wif). I've learnt that i can trust no one, not even someone who appears nice and treats u kindly, coz u might neva knoe when they'll stab u in the back. At a certain pt of time (which i dunno when), i started hating everyone and everything in 'that dreaded place', and up till todae, the hatred din disappear, instead, it's becoming stronger... I hate those hypocrites, those ppl who treat us like slaves to slog for them while they r slacking ard... I hate those stupid Singaporeans who will write in and complain about the system and all that simply coz they had not been careful enuff themselves... I hate them, i hate them all... I din DO anything to deserve this from all of them can...
I feel as if i'm hating the whole world now. I hate ppl, i hate life, and i hate
you.
Monday, April 05, 2004
You asked (or rather ordered) me to do stuff for u coz u were
busy... Well, it's not as if i dun have enuff work on my hands u knoe. There were tons of emails waiting for me... Fine, i do, and wat were u doing? U were eating and chatting happily wif ur fellow colleague at ur desk and still had the cheek to give me that face and warned me that the stuff u assigned me to do was
urgent. If it was urgent, y dun u do it urself? F**king
bitch.
V, you are a
slut. Shameless creature.
Sunday, April 04, 2004
Needless to sae, 1 week has passed...
I'm inspired by mummy to dedicate this entire entry to those stupid irritating obasans plus my couldn't-care-less supervisors of
'that dreaded place'. So ppl, pls bear wif me...
Nowadaes i realli can't stand going to work simply coz i'm not being treated as a human there... Me and my few other frens who r being transferred from helpline to other diff departments r treated as nobody's children, treated as
slaves. No one, not even our supervisors, cares whether we r alive or dead. All they knoe is when they need u, they'll transfer u to their department, when they dun need u, they'll juz throw u to some other department and leave u to fend for urself... U r expected to slog for them and work hard every single second, while they use their time to chat on the telephone, gossip loudly wif their other colleagues and laughing like idiots wif zero IQ, take naps, think of wat famous dishes they can order in bulk for lunch, find fault wif us etc etc... Sometimes they can juz choose to forget ur existence even though u r sitting rite in front of them. When they think that the place is too stuffy (which obviously is NOT the case), they'll lodge complaints and force the technicians to on the aircons to max... Wat happens? We freeze to death. Suddenly they'll 'discover' ur existence and ask u if u r feeling cold, u sae yes, they'll juz shrug and continue wateva they r doing. Good job man.
I mean pls, wif this kinda worse-than-hell working environment, i definitely can't stay on anymore... Wat's holding me back? My movie passes. I tell u man, the minute i get my passes, i'll slap all ur disgusting faces and i'm outta here... The thought of such ppl existing in this world realli makes me wanna puke. Wat has the world come to? I hope these ppl will get the punishment they deserve man.
I hate all of you. F you all.
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