I realised the no. of entries i've blogged for the past few daes is more than the total no. of entries i've posted for the whole of last mth! Weird, no? Hmmm... I think it's due to escapism.

Enuff of sad entries. I dun wanna seem like some whiny little girl. I'm juz having my fair share of downs, that's all. And i admit, i'm feeling a lot of pressure these daes, thus i'm easily irritable and saddened. Well, i guez that's juz the 'exam-period syndrome'.

So yupz, i shall stay positive and persevere on. No time to think about other stuff oso... So i shall juz conc on getting my wonderful grades (i hope to get ABBC this time, hopefully) and look forward to my long long long vacation after that...

Speaking about the vacation, everyone is intending to travel abroad! I hope that i can at least go to Malaysia haha... I'll be contented wif that, realli. But if any of u is feeling rich and wanna sponsor a whole grp of us for a 7-day trip to Taiwan, u r soooo welcome... ;)

BlueStar sparkled at 2:46 AM  ~  0 stars

Sometimes, i feel that my life is in a mess. I have no idea wat i am doing. I have no direction as to where to go.

Every dae, i juz wake up and try hard to find the energy to last me through the dae, and take on whatever that comes.

I tried hard not to look back. I tried hard to love wat i am doing. I tried hard to devote all my time and effort, and try my bez to do wat i am supposed to do. I tried hard to work towards the aim that i had tried setting for myself. I felt i was becoming happier by the dae, and that i'm adapting well wif things...

So y did i lose it coz of ur simple comment? Y did i completely break down when i was reminded of the past again... Am i realli deceiving myself? Have i not gotten over it?

BlueStar sparkled at 4:13 AM  ~  0 stars

Had my IT quiz todae... Din do veri well... Made 3 silly mistakes! Argh.

Econs quiz is coming up on thurs. Shall go mug for it now.

Tataz ppl...

P.S: Sorrie for the short posts nowadaes... I'm juz too busy to blog! I shall look forward to 26th April (my last dae of exams, excluding my GE that is)! Hehe...

BlueStar sparkled at 8:24 PM  ~  0 stars

I hate doing projs. I hate doing projs wif stupid idiots.

Did i mention that i hate doing projs?

Now i'm left wif no time to study for my quizzes. And oso the exams coming up.

I'm seriously stressed.

BlueStar sparkled at 12:23 AM  ~  0 stars

My mum juz called. Uncle J left us at 2+ in the morning.

Hai.

Rest in peace, Uncle J. May u no longer feel any pain as u proceed to the other world.

May God bless Uncle J's widow and her 2 grieving sons. Please give them the strength that they need to carry on.

BlueStar sparkled at 11:41 PM  ~  0 stars

I'm stressed. I'm busy. I'm running out of time.

I can't breathe.

BlueStar sparkled at 1:16 AM  ~  0 stars

Haven't blogged for ard a year sia... And u r gonna see me blogging less often in the next 1 mth... Coz exams r starting on 14th apr, and i'm already feeling the pressure...

Remember the uncle who was stricken wif kidney cancer? He's dying... His doctor had said that he may not live past todae, thus todae my mum and many of his frens from both Singapore and Malaysia rushed down to see him... Perhaps for that one last time. According to my mum, he was struggling coz of the extreme pain, and it was so bad that he wanted the doctor to juz give him an injection to put him to rest... But it was not possible. Rite now, he's still struggling for his life at the hospital, and no one knoes if he'll see the sun rise tmr morning...

Hai... Life is so fragile... So easily broken. And wat am i doing here?

I pray... That the uncle will go peacefully... And may he not feel any pain anymore when he proceeds to the next world... Farewell uncle... I'll remember u...

BlueStar sparkled at 10:33 PM  ~  0 stars

It's been a year.

On this veri dae last year, my hopes were dashed. My dream was shattered. Life was neva the same again.

Todae's the dae of release of results for the A levels. A dae when past memories comes back to haunt me once again. I was determined not to let it affect me... Then it happened. One of my closest juniors did quite badly, and i spent half an hr talking to her over the phone, comforting her and giving her advice. I can actualli feel her pain, her disappointment, her devastation... That mixture of feelings was juz too familiar...

Watching the news on the results release juz now brought me back to a year ago, when i teared as i saw those happy faces on the tv, and worse, when the news focused on AJ achieving the bez results in god-knoes-how-many years. I remembered how i kept thinking, y did i do so badly when everyone else AJ did so well... Those were the sad memories...

Until now, i still get upset when i think about it. About how it led to me having to take a different path now... A path that i'm getting veri lost while i'm on it... But besides regretting, wat else can i do but accept this fact? I dun have any other choice...

To those who got good results for their A levels todae (and not forgetting the O levels on mon), congrats and well done. To those who din do well, and r feeling veri upset over their results, juz cry ur hearts out and go to sleep... Tmr will be a brand new dae, filled wif hope... I wish everyone all the bez, and may u all choose the bez paths to take in life...

It's been a year. And perhaps, it's time to let go.

BlueStar sparkled at 11:56 PM  ~  0 stars