Friday, March 04, 2005
It's been a year.
On this veri dae last year, my hopes were dashed. My dream was shattered. Life was neva the same again.Todae's the dae of release of results for the A levels. A dae when past memories comes back to haunt me once again. I was determined not to let it affect me... Then it happened. One of my closest juniors did quite badly, and i spent half an hr talking to her over the phone, comforting her and giving her advice. I can actualli feel her pain, her disappointment, her devastation... That mixture of feelings was juz too familiar...
Watching the news on the results release juz now brought me back to a year ago, when i teared as i saw those happy faces on the tv, and worse, when the news focused on AJ achieving the bez results in god-knoes-how-many years. I remembered how i kept thinking, y did i do so badly when everyone else AJ did so well... Those were the sad memories...
Until now, i still get upset when i think about it. About how it led to me having to take a different path now... A path that i'm getting veri lost while i'm on it... But besides regretting, wat else can i do but accept this fact? I dun have any other choice...
To those who got good results for their A levels todae (and not forgetting the O levels on mon), congrats and well done. To those who din do well, and r feeling veri upset over their results, juz cry ur hearts out and go to sleep... Tmr will be a brand new dae, filled wif hope... I wish everyone all the bez, and may u all choose the bez paths to take in life...
It's been a year. And perhaps, it's time to let go.
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