I'm beginning to realise a fact about myself. I'm stupid, realli.

When it comes to written assignments like reports and business letters etc, although i take great pains in completing them, the end result will still turn out to be disappointing. I always find it so difficult to express myself properly when writing these assignments, and i'll end up using realli simple words to get my msg across... For example, take a look at this sentence:

"She is a diligent and capable employee with an excellent track record."

Sounds plain and boring, no? Now look at this:

"She is highly efficient, proactive and genuinely interested in creating value for the company. She also had a glowing testimonial from her previous employer."

Now, doesn't this sound so much better? No prizes for guessing which version was written by urs truly, and which assignment got better comments eventually.

When it comes to oral presentations, all hell breaks loose. I stutter, stammer, forget my lines, avoid eye contact wif the audience, look stupid and sound even more stupid. Public speaking is indeed my weakest link, there's no doubt about it. I can't even deliver a 3-min speech properly, for God's sake. No matter how i practise and rehearse till 5am the prev nite, i'll still screw up on the dae itself. I feel so hopeless u knoe.

The worst thing that can ever happen, is when ur tutor picks u to stand in front of the whole claz to give ur analysis on an article. And subjects u to total humiliation for a full 5 mins, while throwing all sorts of difficult qns in ur face. So wat do u do? U smile sheepishly at her, and tell her that u dun have the answers to her qns. She smirks, and continues to fire more qns at u while observing ur response intently. U stand there helplessly, hoping to dig a hole to conceal urself. That was the longest 5 mins of ur life.

After reading wat i've juz written, i think i'm not talking sense. Ha. This further affirms my point: my command of English realli sucks. Period.

BlueStar sparkled at 6:42 PM  ~  0 stars