It's the last dae of the year again. And once again, i'm feeling quite sad... Veri yi1 yi1 bu4 she3...

2005 has been a rather smooth year for me. Although i can't remember much of wat i did from January to July (more of that later), i can sae that i have been quite happy for the later half of the year (as in the past semester). Yes, it's been tough trying to get used to the 'marketing life', but i've managed to cope wif it well. (I'm esp proud to have survived through biz comm!!! Haha.)

Let me digress. One thing i realised eva since i entered uni: my so-called "calendar clock" (u knoe "biological clock"?) has been quite screwed up. For example, it's now the end of the year, but it feels like mid-year to me! This is all thanx to how they schedule the academic year haha. That's y i realli have no much recollection of wat i did from January to July, coz that seemed like a year ago for me!

Ok back to my reflections. 2005 has been quite an eventful year for me. I completed my first year of uni studies and scored quite well. I chose my business specialisation, and for a period of time, i wondered if i made the wrong choice as i felt HR might be more suitable for me. Now, i can proudly sae that i do not regret my decision, and though marketing may not be perfect for me, it's sth that i realli enjoy and grew to love. I'm still in the process of learning and 'polishing' myself, so that i can emerge as a more confident and eloquent person after my 3 years of study. I started my second year as an undergrad, and life has been good as my modules do not require intensive mugging. I struggled through biz comm together wif all my classmates, but after the whole course, we agree that it has been an excellent learning experience. And not forgetting, i've gained a bunch of wonderful frens from my biz comm claz! (Tonite's BBQ was realli fun! Many thanx to all of u guys!)

Looking back, 2005 has indeed been a significant year for me. It is the year when i turned 20 (so old le haha). It is the year when i decided my future career path. It is the year when i grew closer to all my frens, and oso made a number of new ones... 2005, a year full of so many sweet memories...

I've oso juz received my bez new year gift... I've finally found a fren who's in the same acc claz as me! Yay! No more worries about projs and stuff! Hehe. This gives me a bit more confidence and assurance to brave the rough year ahead (i hope it wun be as 'rough' as i expect it to be).

2005, i will remember u and miss u always. 2006, fang4 ma3 guo4 lai2 ba!

P.S: Happy New Year everyone! =)

BlueStar sparkled at 1:57 AM  ~  0 stars

Recently, i've got into a habit of sitting down and thinking about stuff. During one of this 'thinking sessions', i realised that there's nothing that i'm particularly good at. I dun have leadership qualities, i suck at public speaking, i dun excel academically, i can't draw, i can't play any instruments, i can't dance... U get the drift. So wat am i going to do as my career? I dun think i'll make a veri good businesswoman...

And every time, this small voice will pop out and sae, "Eh, u sing not bad wat. Moreover, u love singing!"

"But how can i make this my career? Become a singer? There's so much better talent out there! No chance one lah."

"Hai, true hor."

So as usual, i'll be stuck at the same qn again: Y am i such a good-for-nothing huh?

(I shall write my disclaimer first: I'm realli not trying to boast or whatever, so pls do not blast me wif evil remarks.)

Then again, one thing i'm good at is recognising songs and remembering their melodies and lyrics. As in when the radio plays a song from, for example, 6 yrs ago, chances r, i can tell u the name of the singer, the title, and perhaps even sing the whole song out for u. All this within the first 3-5 secs when the song starts to play. (Haha this is proven kae! We played this song-guessing game when we were at Sharon's hse in KL and i could do that for almost all the songs! Serious!)

That's y for this long period of time, i had wanted to enter mass communications and become a radio DJ. I tot hey, that'll be a suitable job for me! But i've come to realise that i dun have the kou3 cai2 to be one. I think i'll suffer a nervous breakdown first before uttering my first line on air. Hai.

Eh wat am i writing ah? This is such a messy post. Argh. I'm juz xianz lah.

Oh by the wae i'm sad todae. I din manage to get into the same claz as my frens for Accounting II. Of all subjs can! My most dreaded subj, and i hafta be all alone in a claz. Worse, who am i going to do the proj wif? Argh.

BlueStar sparkled at 11:18 PM  ~  0 stars

Now that Christmas is over, i'm sad. Ok lah i've been sad since before Christmas, but i had been looking forward to the joyous festive season mah. Now that it's over...

I dun want 2006 to come. Can't i stay in 2005 forever? Yes, 2005 may not have been a perfect year for me, but at least, it was a rather happy one. 2006? No matter how i imagine it to be, it's gonna be quite disastrous... Juz look at this:

First semester: 4 core modules including the much-dreaded Accounting II (i almost failed Accounting I last year)

May to July break: Professional Attachment (i still dunno which company to apply for)

End July to end of year: My final year. Final Year Project. Enuff said.

Juz tell me, how am i going to survive through 2006???

BlueStar sparkled at 11:45 PM  ~  0 stars

Merry Christmas everyone!!! =) Have fun this long weekend! Hehe.

Oh the weather outside is frightful
But the fire is so delightful
And since we've no place to go
Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!


Sleigh bells ring, are you listening
In the lane, snow is glistening
A beautiful sight
We're happy tonight
Walking in a winter wonderland...


You better watch out, you better not cry
You better not pout, I'm telling you why
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming to town!!!

Haha i'm crazee le. Enjoy urself this wonderful Christmas season!

BlueStar sparkled at 2:18 AM  ~  0 stars

Eventually, results r released today. And i got a grand total of: 2 B+s and 1 B.

Yes u saw correctly. Bs yet again!!! Arghhhhhhh... And i tot i'll at least get an A.

In case u r wondering y i'm so worked up, that's coz for the whole of my year 1 in uni, i scored 6 Bs out of 8 core modules. No As at all! And if this keeps up, i think i'll graduate wif not a single A at all (coz the future modules r getting tougher)...

I'm disappointed. Hai. Y did my 2 potential As turn into B+s!!! It wld have been so much nicer to see an A- instead of a B+ lor. RAH.

The onli surprising thing was that i got a B+ for one of my electives! The one that i tot i may fail! Haha. As the saying goes, u gain some, u lose some.

BlueStar sparkled at 5:22 PM  ~  0 stars

The hols are ending. Results are coming. The skys are falling.

Wonder when exactly will our results be out. Good luck to everyone, esp to myself. Haha.

Edit: Results not out yet. Guez it'll be tmr. Bummer.

BlueStar sparkled at 3:04 AM  ~  0 stars

This movie is an absolute stunner from beginning to end. *a round of applause for the cast and the director of the show*

Perhaps Love. Ru Guo Ai. Wat a name.

This is the first time that i had gone to watch a movie wif veri high expectations, and yet they were exceeded. The plot, the music, the singing and dancing... Everything was perfect. To me, this show is even better than Moulin Rouge. So who said Asians can't produce good musicals?



Zhou Xun was the star of the show, without a doubt. Brilliant acting. Was extremely impressed by her dancing as well.

I'll give this movie 5 stars anytime.

BlueStar sparkled at 7:16 PM  ~  0 stars

Last nite's claz gathering was realli fun! Had a great time at The Mind Cafe. Good place to bond over board games! Jenga was super exciting haha... Credit goes to Wendy and Liang Wei for organising this gathering (haha i'm copying Mr Kenneth)!

I wanna go back there for more board games! I'm hooked! Haha. We must organise another outing there soon! (To Mr Kenneth and Wei Li: Perhaps we can get Huiyin to go wif us or sth!)

BlueStar sparkled at 11:57 PM  ~  0 stars

Deep down, i knoe i have never been realli happy.

I dunno wat i'm doing wif my life. Struggling through uni... Wif no aim whatsoever. Wif no idea of wat to do in future... I feel like i'm wandering around alone, aimlessly... And it scares me.

A fren X asked me wat i intend to do when i graduate. I gave a sheepish smile and shrugged my shoulders. She then went on and on about her great ambitions, how she intends to save up and set up her own business...

"C'mon, we r in business, so of coz we must set up our own business when we graduate rite? Or else enter into this course for wat?"

Good pt. So y am i in business? I entered into this course without any inkling of wat it'll be like, coz it was not my 1st choice. I actualli tot the lessons will teach us ways to run a company!

Wat will i be doing after graduation? F**k, how wld i knoe! I dun even knoe if i can make it past next year, wif a hectic 2nd semester coming up, and my final year starting in July. Juz the thought of FYP (final year project) and PA (professional attachment, which will take place between May to July next year) is enuff to make me faint.

X continued to ask me if i have decided which company to do my PA in. I replied, saying that i'm actualli waiting for them to allocate the company to me, as i've no wish to compete wif others to enter into those top MNCs (multi-national companies). I'll be contented to work in some SME (small & medium enterprise) company. Besides, i can't write good cover letters (i suck in such formal letters remember?), and i wun make it past the interviews even if i'm selected.

X frowned. She went on to advise us that we must choose our PA company carefully, as we may be joining that particular company after graduation. (Yeah i knoe that.) Told us about how her fren hopes to work in P&G, which is like one of the hottest MNCs that most marketing students wanna join... She then carried on to sae that she wld not choose to work in an MNC, coz she feels that she wun learn much there.

X is not an 'exceptional' case. Most of my coursemates and classmates r juz like her, they knoe wat they r doing, they knoe where they r heading. Whenever i hear such ppl ard me going on and on about how their future is going to be etc, i always think y am i so stupid, so useless... Y am i the onli one who is so unsure about everything? I'm an undergrad juz like them rite? So y am i so different from them?

Sometimes i feel that i'm still a naive young girl after all. Perhaps i stopped growing since i was 14. Or 15. And guess wat, this naive girl is going to turn 21 next year.

This song suits my current mood: S.H.E - "Bu Xiang Zhang Da"

P.S: A fren of a fren juz passed away tonite. Bike accident. (My condolences.) My fren is feeling veri lost now. Told me how so many ppl out there dunno wat they want and wat they r doing... But this fren had been working towards his dreams, his goals... Hai... And me, juz wat am i doing wif my own life??

BlueStar sparkled at 11:30 PM  ~  0 stars

Got tagged by Mr Kenneth to do this...

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. (Many a times!)
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi. (More of 'like', not 'love')
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic. (Er sometimes onli lah)
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in (a) God. (Do all the chinese Gods and Goddesses count?)
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
(except during exam period)I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
(HAHA)Democrat.Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient on a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurants.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I f**king hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays
I watch Food Network way too much.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I love vaginas. (HAHA PUSSY PUSSY PUSSY)
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed. (I'm not ashamed)
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when neccesary.

Additional thing about myself: I am a veri thrifty (stingy?) person who believes that money is for saving, not spending. If i were to strike 4D now and win $1 million, i wld keep $900000 in the bank, give $60000 to charity (is that too little?) and spend the remaining $40000 on my family, frens and myself.

I shall tag: Dear, Mummy, Leo, JS, Andrea~

BlueStar sparkled at 12:48 AM  ~  0 stars

I fell asleep last nite while i was halfway thru writing this entry... Thus, beware: this is gonna be a super long entry.

I'm back!

On the whole, the KL trip was indeed a memorable one. The ppl we met, the things we saw and the experiences we had... These r juz priceless.

Let me digress as i touch on the shopping part first. Surprisingly, it realli sucked. I hafta sae that KL is not a good place for shopping, coz things there r usually quite expensive (compared to JB), and the clothes and shoes etc juz do not suit our style. In the end, i ended up buying onli 1 t-shirt from KL! Pathetic rite?

Enuff of digression.



KL is a city of contrasts. The KL city central is a hybrid of Orchard Road and Raffles Place, where there r spectacular high-rise buildings and not forgetting, the KL tower and the Petronas Towers. The outskirts of KL is a different sight. Rows and rows of single-storey terrace houses greet u as u drive down the main roads of the housing estates.



Sharon's housing estate was part of the "New Villages" that were set up in the late 1940s as part of the Briggs plan (history students wld knoe about this). As these houses were built during the colonial times, most of them look pretty old and dilapidated. However, these historical buildings brought out this "kampong atmosphere" which i grew to love...

As we walked along the streets, we could see small food stalls springing up everywhere. Almost all these stalls r family businesses, and they r set up rite at the front porches of their houses. We visited 2 noodle stalls and 1 zhi cha stall (they call it "chao3 mian4 dang4") during our stay, and i must sae that the food was realli bagus! We esp love the char siew (which can be found in dishes like chicken rice and wonton mee etc) coz it's so yummylicious, unlike the singaporean version which tastes of the red colouring more than anything else. The wonton mee, ban3 mian4, chicken rice (their version consists of both chicken and char siew), zhi cha etc r so good, they can beat most of their Singaporean competitors hands down anytime.

We oso got to eat the original Ramly Burger! All i can sae is, the ones we get from the pasar malams r realli poor pirated versions. The real Ramly burger is made on the spot (yes, including the patty, which is different from the Singapore one as well), and add on the extra ingredients (shredded onions etc)... Simply heavenly! And it costs onli RM2.70!

Haha ok enuff of food. I guez u r all drooling already. =P

Highlights of the trip:

First dae (tues): Nothing realli exciting. Reached KL at ard 2.30pm. At nite, we enjoyed a realli sumptuous dinner prepared by Sharon's mum, who is a realli warm and friendly person. =) Went to Jusco (a small shopping mall) after dinner.

Second dae (wed): Toured the city central. Took the Putra LRT to KLCC. Watched Harry Potter, which i must sae, was realli great! (I teared at the part when Cedric Diggory died.) Walk ard Times Square for a while. Spent the whole afternoon shopping at Sungei Wang, ended up buying onli that pathetic t-shirt and mummy's shoes.

Third dae (thurs): Planned to go KTV, but was cancelled coz it rained heavily the whole dae. Stayed at home to play computer games hehe. Left KL that nite via train.



The train ride was realli exciting. We din manage to get the bottom deck beds, so all 4 of us had to settle for the upper deck beds. It was a blessing in disguise. It was so fun to sleep on the upper deck, and we can view the scenery outside the window as well! We even played dai dee haha. The bed was so cozy and comfortable, i couldn't bear to leave after that! How i wish i can travel on the train again... =(

Fourth dae (fri): We had decided to stop at JB instead of Singapore as we din wanna go home empty-handed! So we planned to shop at City Square in the morning. We expected the train to arrive at JB at ard 7+ in the morning, but guez wat...

It arrived at 6.05am!

So we slacked ard at the station till ard 7.30am, then walked to City Square to have breakfast at Mac. Spent the whole dae shopping ard after that, and the girls managed to buy quite some stuff. I onli bought another tee and a phone pouch. -_-'''

To end off, i feel that the best part of this KL trip was the ppl we met and got to knoe. Sharon's family had been a great host who realli welcomed us and made us feel at home. I am realli veri grateful to them for that.

Her brothers (esp her younger brother Jiahao) would talk to us, joke wif us and teach us how to play games. Her dad took the effort to tour us ard the city central and the residential areas. There was this particular incident that happened on the first nite, when it poured as the 4 of us were leaving Jusco. We managed to hail a cab and returned home safely, but it was when we reached home that we realised that her dad had went home to fetch her mother (he was working at that time), and together they had headed down to the mall to find us, as they were worried that we wld be trapped there coz of the rain. We were all so touched...

Her mum is a motherly lady who shared her experiences wif us and talked to us about her family etc. Through our conversations, we could see that she is a realli caring mum who dotes on her children a lot. She shared wif us lots of tips on yoga as well haha (she's a real yoga fanatic). Auntie oso whipped up nice homecooked meals for us, and did all the little things to make us feel realli at home. I realli grew to like her a lot, and when we left, i knew that i was going to miss her... Who knoes if we'll ever meet again?

It's been a realli eye-opening and unforgettable trip... I'll miss all the times we had, the experiences, the train ride, the ppl...

P.S: I'm realli upset coz i realised that i lost my denim jacket in JB! I've no idea how i lost it... I still had it wif me when i was on the train! It has been wif me for 4+ yrs... Hai... *sobz*

P.P.S: I took ard 6 hrs to come up wif this post, so pardon me for posting it so late. And pls, pardon the length of this post and the poor language used.

BlueStar sparkled at 11:58 PM  ~  0 stars